I've been eating so much carbs this week you'd think I'm storing for winter. But I'm going with it because apparently that's what my body wants at this time.
The Practice
Morning meditation - 30 minutes
Yoga at the park - 1 hour
Reflection
I had a very militant yoga teacher yesterday. "Up...down...up....down. Down dog. Up dog." I went at my own pace and had an amazing session. Even as everyone was standing up and I was still in the down dog position, I was exactly where I was supposed to be - going with my own flow. I didn't get caught up in the "I should already be in this position or that one."
It feels like thinking is becoming more of a choice than an involuntary response. Although, thinking does simply happen. It's our identification with any thought in particular that causes suffering. Some of you might be reading this and saying, "I'm not suffering from thinking. I rather enjoy it. And it's useful." What I'm talking about here is that subtle background feeling of discomfort or trying to get somewhere, but never getting there. For most people, it's still a normal way of life. It's hard to tell that you're suffering when means of escape still work like happy hour, television, social events, work, family drama, busyness, the next vacation, etcetera.
It's when they stop working, you get this "Uh-oh" sensation in the pit of your stomach and then you're forced to stare your suffering in the face. But why wait until that happens. Stop and feel when irritation arises. Stop and feel when anxiety arises. Stop and feel when boredom arises. Stop and feel when the feeling of "something is wrong" or "this is not enough" arises. Just stop and feel.
I'm doing the same with food at this time. Who's hungry me or my mind?
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