I woke up this morning with a dreadful feeling of aloneness. And when I say aloneness, I don't mean loneliness. It's more like a knowing or a feeling that there's nothing and no one out there. No matter where I go and who I meet, I keep bumping into the reflection of my self.
I got up slowly, went through my morning routine just as slowly, and made myself some tea. I didn't engage in the "am I really alone?" mental work. I stayed with the sensations of "aloneness." It didn't take long for the sensations to change to OKness. I decided right then that I was going to go to the Zen Center this morning.
Soon after, the mind went into its planning mode. "What am I going to do after the Zen Center?" As soon as that thought entered my mind, worry returned. I stayed with the worry sensation and that too turned into OKness.
The Practice
Meditation with Eckhart Tolle - 20 minutes
Cardio - 30 minutes
Reflection
I haven't been to the Zen Center in over a week and I have to say that I'm itching to go. Although, I have been sitting consistently for at least 10 minutes a day, there's something about sitting longer with other people around you that feels more grounding.
No comments:
Post a Comment