Day 40

They say that in the moment of decision the universe works to assist you. I decided that this coming Thursday was going to be my last day at the long-term sub position as I feel that I've done my part in that classroom and it's time to pass down the torch. Yesterday after school I get a call from the office manager saying that they hired the new teacher and I'm being released from my assignment as of that moment.

In these so-called "hard times" most people are trying to keep their jobs as long as possible; yet, I don't get that need. I had a realization the other day that I don't make the money, none of us do. We don't go to work to "make money," we go to know ourselves. We go to know our joys, our limits, our irritations, our frustrations, our need for security. The money itself is the byproduct of what we're drawn to at any given time. Does it mean that if we sit at home all day and don't go to work, the money will keep on coming? May be. We don't know because we're too busy being scared that we'll end up on the street. But if we really look at the motivation behind going to work or not going to work, it has nothing to do with money, but rather where we're being drawn.

On the surface it seems like we're doing this thing or that for a specific reason, but really we're not doing anything, IT'S doing us.

The Practice

Morning meditation - 10 minutes

Reflection

It's been 40 days and nights. Sitting in the mornings has become as natural as making my bed. And making my bed hasn't always been natural. It's like anything, I suppose. I was listening to Byron Katie talk about brushing her teeth on You Tube the other day. She was saying how difficult it used to be to just get up and brush her teeth at the time of her deep depression. And then one day she heard her own voice saying "all you have to do is brush your teeth."

We don't have to overwhelm ourselves with "all the things we have to do." The only thing we ever have to do at any given moment is just brush our teeth or make our bed or sit.